Last Chance
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
In the dream the dark figure enters
the room where I’m half asleep,
places his cloaked hands
on my head, and whispers something–
something about my father
and his father—going back generations–
something I need to know—a secret
unutterable until now. My father,
aware someone is coming,
stirs in his bed.
Seven Little Poems of Desire
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
When beginning—sing. Testify
to a hidden residence. Let the sensibilities
of the imagination arrange the details, and join them.
It all necessitates a conscious start. Turn a little
to the side—it’s there. Narrow your focus. Rise and practice,
rise and practice, and never stop singing.
***
One must put up with risks.
But there are benefits—such as
paradise. Time awakens that
which sleeps, that which is born
of the sun, and light rises, goes
beyond the skin, and from then on
it is all forward–all breakthroughs,
all tender departures.
***
The moon reaches down, lifts the water,
scales of fish carry petals of the sun,
the frog has a jewel between its eyes,
deer move together leaving no hoof prints
in the grass, moths slip their orbit of longing
and their wings catch fire, the child paints circles
with her fingers and then follows them inside
towards home.
***
Love finds you just as morning finds you,
just as the sky finds the fledgling’s wings,
and every wave finds the shore,
and washes every shell, and collects them
in the infinite folds of its memory,
and returns them to the sea where they belong.
***
Try not to sleep against the day. The living
awakening will find you and carry you in its pockets.
The unavoidable storms will shake
the foundations of your life, and when all
is said and done, you will be placed
in the ground, like a seed in the sweetest
darkness of being eternally found.
***
The innermost is now outermost,
as the Great Imaginatrix brings
her absurdities of joy and a thousand
reassurances, and elaborations
of quickenings, and seeds of roses.
The intuitive swinging of branches
to-and-fro, says it all—this ecstasy,
this immediacy–is for you.
***
My soul rings cracked. Here is the marvel:
beyond the narrow cast of reason
there are no margins to love’s mercy,
there are no hidden meanings
when the necessary darkness says: “Follow me,
and your soul will ring true again.”
Nibbling a Grain of Barely
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
I don’t want any clues.
OK. Maybe just one.
It doesn’t need to be the kind that resounds
in my head, but don’t make it the faintest echo
either. Don’t give it in a roundabout way,
and don’t make it come from the third
or fourth shout from a crow. And please, don’t
make it a gate with seven locks.
Is it the forgotten fishing line tangled in the tree
by the Wissahickon Creek? Is it the old woman sweeping
outside the restaurant that’s been in her family
for three generations? Will I know it
if it bumps up against me? Will it be succinct?
Will it have a mouth and claws?
You once told me you’ve seen grass swaying
in the sea, and I won’t bother asking
how you managed that since you live on land,
but is that somehow the clue?
You tell me the universe has never been veiled, yet
you tell me you’ve seen a hare leaping from cloud
to cloud, and that you’ve eaten brewer’s grain
and hops from a sealed, metal grain bin.
But where does that leave me?
I know you think silent sermons are best,
but I’m not interested in wisdom. Listen, it’s just
that my heart is swarmed with questions,
and I’m tired, my soul aches, my spirit
hasn’t gone out in days. Wait–
wait, wait, wait—that’s it, isn’t it? The longing–
the longing is the clue. I got it, didn’t I? I got it.
I see you smiling, nibbling a grain of barely, I see
the glint in your obsidian eyes, I see you twitch your ear,
I see you disappear again into the corn field.
Buddha’s Bones
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
The old man quietly
puts on his clothes
as the morning loosens
from the night.
He goes outside,
sits on the porch,
eats some warm rice,
sips some warm tea,
then sets his bowl aside
for the deer to finish.
He stands, takes the shawl
and staff that wait by the door,
and goes in search
of the Buddha’s bones.
He walks as the fog
slowly lifts, he walks
as far as the pond
where a heron stands
on one leg, snow falling
on its hunched shoulders.
He watches a long time.
He watches until a white deer
walks passed him, snapping
a twig, jolting him awake.
He shakes his head, he watches
his breath carry his whispered
words to the heron, to the deer,
and then is on his way.
He walks until his feet
are just the right amount of cold,
he walks until the moon
emerges from its cave
in the clouds, he walks until
he is sure the deer ate the rest
of the rice.
And when he arrives back home
he turns and stands for a long,
still moment, snow falling
on his shoulders and the branches,
the rocks, and the logs. He smiles.
Buddha’s bones are everywhere.
It’s Getting Closer
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
Did you hear that?
It wasn’t the wind.
Hand me the lantern.
Something’s out there.
Pull the curtains aside just a little.
Do you see that?
It’s just standing there in the storm.
It looks like it has wings.
I want to say I’m sorry.
I want to ask your forgiveness.
You taught me there are no forbidden thoughts.
You taught me to buy lemonade
from every lemonade stand.
You taught me to pick up the worms
that wandered onto the sidewalk
and to put them back in the grass.
And what have I done for you?
Complained, hidden, complained some more.
If I taught you anything, it was to never give up.
Which, come to think of it, you taught me.
Here—you take the lantern–
you’ve always held the lantern.
It’s getting closer.
I didn’t expect it to be so magnificent, so majestic.
Why is it staring at you?
It seems to know you.
Why are you moving to the door?
Why are you opening the door?
Where did the storm go?
Why is the sun out at midnight?
Why are you looking at me like that?
Why are you smiling?
Why do you want me to take your hand?
Where are we going?
Why are we going?
What’s happening?
Wait. Have you always had wings?
I have so many questions.
Why are you bringing your finger to your lips?
How is it we are suddenly three?
How is it the ground is falling away?
How is there a city in the sky?
Have you always had the moon and the stars
in your hair? Yes–I’ll be quiet now.
It’s All Good
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
Everything is charged with magic,
dervishes trace enneagrams on the ground in Konya,
the central stem of the Y holds the point
where the path to heaven divides.
And here I am in bed—a poultice of lavender flowers
on my heart. I can barely move. I am sweating my soul
right out of my body, and last night I dreamt
I was a skeleton climbing Jacob’s Ladder.
It’s all good though—as they say—whoever they are
who have everything good. Their point is
no matter how sick I become, birds descend and ascend,
and peacocks will always quiver-fan their feathers open
revealing the eyes of god. There are outlines
of crystals and crossroads, animals and rivers,
triangles and constellations on the palms of my hands.
And on a mountain ledge a cricket watches over us all.
Yet, I am keenly aware the eye of my eternity
has begun to blink, the dodecahedron of my brain
has turned into a seed, and the wind
is a pack of lions coming my way, and my soul
has turned into a fish looking for the sea.
Find Your Bearings
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
It’s time to pack your belongings—such as
they are–and drop the skull of god.
Flee from yourself—there is so much
everything to see, and each grain of sand has a name.
Be greedy for light, put the impossible
to the test, the scaffold of the night
needs climbing, and the day is large-hearted,
and astonishment isn’t made to be limited.
It doesn’t matter who put the roses on the cross.
Find your bearings, accept the gold each day
places in your hand, and go. Move forward
from joy to joy, remembering you can only evade turbulence
for so long, but there are dragons swift and strong at your side,
and dance expands time and space,
and you cannot stop to help every staggering man.
Seven Little Poems in the Dark
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
Driving to the library, I ran over a small,
greenish-brown frog. I didn’t see it until it was too late,
and instantly I burst into tears and pounded
the steering wheel. But in that split-second before,
the frog looked noble, its head up, ready.
***
The war on terror ever expands.
Now it includes me.
Who can I turn to but the devil
when I am so demonized?
***
A black cat winds its tail around my leg,
I go outside and the crows unsettle,
I rub my tears into my wrists,
and now I have the power to fly.
***
I need to find the Queen of the Fairies.
I woke up with antlers on my head,
there’s a wolf in the rye,
and all I seem to be able to do is dance.
***
Those who despise me have me running,
and I need to stop. Despair helps me
meet my options with a level gaze.
Many have stood where I stand, and lived.
***
It’s time to remove the nails from the coffins
and sing to the bones of the dead.
When at war, it is wise to have friends
from the other side. Blood was kneaded
into the last supper. I am ready
to take up my sword.
***
The sea provides space for questions.
I just want to kiss someone on the navel
and lower back.
Why am I being hunted? Why do they
want me dead? I know the answer:
I am a mystery, a locked box,
and locks entice the thief.
What to Do?
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
Trees sleep more and more these days,
they do more dawdling, and have trouble
catching their second wind.
Take the willow for instance,
mostly what they do nowadays is plan random
thoughts. They end up only writing their initials
instead of the stories they usually write,
and when a little boy turns into a hare
and bounds away, they hardly take notice,
when they sweep the ground they look
less and less like crones sweeping their cottages
and more like lost, tethered ghosts.
Another example is the pine.
Fewer and fewer of their cones follow
the Fibonacci spiral, and look less and less
like friars praying in a monastery, and more
like wooden teeth that fall out at the slightest breeze.
Now, I don’t have answers to any of this,
especially the stuff about the willows,
I’m just worried—autumn is approaching,
and when it gets here—what then?
What if their leaves are less vivid and bright,
and can’t hold on to their branches for very long?
And I can’t even help find solutions–I’m too busy
grooming my long, velvety ears and being skittish
at everything that moves.
It’s OK
by
Radiance Angelina Petro
It would be a mistake
to unlock all the riddles.
When the angel visits
it’s perfectly reasonable
to be afraid. It’s OK–
you’re allowed to have
someone accompany you
on your own, personal labyrinth.
One day you will open
your bedroom door
and there will be an oak tree
in the middle of a garden,
and flowers will grow
from your every, open wound.